Friday, 4 November 2011

Embrace Hunger


Definition of Hunger


a. A strong desire or need for food.
b. The discomfort, weakness, or pain caused by a prolonged lack of food

Well today I am hungry and I was hungry yesterday.  I'm okay with hunger.  I am embracing hunger.  I used to have the words "embrace hunger" on my fridge (although it probably should have been on the cupboards as that's where all the treats are) in the vain attempt it would stop me from eating the contents inside.  These never work do they? The little things you do in the hope it will kick start you into eating properly. After my holiday I ordered a photo notebook with 4 of the most hideous pictures I could find of myself. There is one of me in a bikini no less - I never wore a bikini when I was slim so why I choose to wear one when I was at the height of my fatness I don't know. Well actually I do know, I looked better in this than I did in the one piece. My swimming costume made me look like a sack of spuds (that picture also made it to the front cover of the notebook).  By the way, in France the women wear bikinis on the beach, irrespective of their size. Its actually lovely to see - they really don't care and it was very liberating. Like the liberating feeling I had during my pregnancy whilst eating anything I fancied - not so liberating now though is it Tasha.

Back to the notebook - it was my food diary and the pictures were going to shame me into doing something about my weight. I did  manage to do this for a couple of days at the start of every week. Then the notebook basically became a things to do book with the front cover folded over.  See, they just don't work.

Whilst I may be hungry, I'm not starving, the definition of which is to suffer or die from extreme or prolonged lack of food or to suffer from deprivation. I think its safe to say this isn't going to happen don't you?!


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